Everything has changed.
If I had to sum up my entire year in one sentence, that’d be it. Sure, every year comes with its surprises, twists, and turns, but 2015 was exceptional in that regard. My circumstances changed. My lifestyle changed. My faith changed. I changed.
Some of them were good. Others not so much. Still others were painful, yet good sprang out of them.
Here’s just a few of the things that characterized my year.
1. I became a (partial) vegetarian
This was somewhat of a New Year’s Resolution for me. I didn’t want to give up meat completely, but I wanted to cut back significantly, eating it only once per week. I eat it less frequently than that, I’d say. So overall, it’s been a success.
2. I interned through Women at Risk, International
My first experience with an office job was a great one! Every Monday, Thursday, and Friday, I would drive to the headquarters and hammer away at a keyboard for a few hours. It wasn’t perfect—no job is—but it was something I truly enjoyed as a whole. Best part was, I used my skills to potentially help women.
3. I grieved the loss of Rascal
He passed away 10 days before Christmas, so naturally a very significant part of my year was spent grieving the loss of our Cairn Terrier. Maybe you’ve already noticed, but I grieved a great deal through my writing. It was like his ghost haunted me, compelling me to write until the words ran dry. For a class, I wrote an essay about him, one I like enough to try sending into the publishing world. (New Year’s Resolution: give publishing a shot!)
4. We adopted Lily
Close to a year after losing Rascal, we adopted a new furry companion, a Miniature Schnauzer named Lily. My love for her abounds like you wouldn’t believe.
5. I rediscovered my faith
I remember sitting in that red chair in the living room several autumns ago, avoiding my parents’ eyes as I tearily told them, “I’m not sure I want to be a Christian anymore.” All my life, Christianity had brought me pain, so part of me was sick of it; yet I was too scared to let go. My dad suggested I “put it on the shelf” for a bit. So that’s what I did. I strongly believed that if I were to ever return, my faith would look radically different. My prediction was absolutely right. It’s been a process, but now I have re-embraced my religion. And it’s finally giving me peace.
6. I graduated from college
Another huge milestone was finishing my formal schooling completely and graduating from Grand Valley. It was also somewhat bittersweet, as I wasn’t sure where life would take me at the time. But that soon changed because…
7. I got a great job
After an exhausting month of submitting résumés and cover letters, I got hired as a blog writer for GreaterGood.com. That’s a huge blessing for me; whenever anyone asked what I was planning to do with my writing degree, I answered “magazine writing or writing for a nonprofit.” And while GreaterGood isn’t technically a nonprofit, they do a lot of philanthropic work, so it feels like one!
8. I got a car
I never wrote about this, did I? Well, one of the not-so-good events of the year was getting into a crash and totaling my parents’ car. On the bright side, I got a car that I could safely call mine. This beautiful, 2006 Toyota Solara is named the CARDIS. Say hello, everyone!
9. I wrestled with my health
I’m not done yet. But by the grace of God and the help of treatment, I’m coming out victorious.
10. I got a smartphone
As you may have read in my last post, my old phone with a physical keyboard died on me. So I jumped on the smartphone bandwagon.
This is, of course, a very surface-level description. There were more changes. There were sub events within these larger events.
And from it all, I learned a lot. Like…
- I’m stronger than I once believed
- Eggplant gyros in Seattle are the bomb.com
- Paper cranes are fun to make
- I actually prefer traditional churches to modern ones
- It’s really not worth it to drive aggressively
- Someone new doesn’t replace someone you lost; rather, your heart expands to let the new one in
- I’m smarter than I sometimes give myself credit for
- The word stelliferous (“having or abounding with stars”)
- Autism is a spectrum disorder
- Whose Line Is It, Anyway? is hilarious
- I need to ask for help when I’m not okay
(I hope you just learned something from that list, too!)
So what’s next? That’s a bit more of a mystery this year than it was last year; I already knew I had a lot of changes lined up for me. This year, however, I’m only certain that I’m going to look into moving out of my parents’ house. Which will be a huge change in and of itself.
Otherwise, I don’t know. And that’s what’s so fun and terrifying about New Year’s Eve. It’s the one day of the year where you are compelled to contemplate the past and speculate about the future. But whatever happens, I know I’ll get through it.